Black Swan

I Feel So Blue.

Left me alone, I don't need anybody else. I'm a stupid and heartless girl. 
Really....

home, I'm back

I'M FINALLY HOMEEEEEE~~

how I miss home :'(

Sorry for leaving this blog for so long, cause I was so busy with my collage thingy. I just finished my super scary-pathetic-tired orientation yesterday. 5 days of orientation and I feel like my soul is pop out. first day of orientation, I felt like I would stop studying, I want go home as soon as possible and met my mom and dad. But I know I should finish this collage. I should life by my self and keep survive.
The orientation was so hard. All the seniors were so scary and fierce. All my time was waste just for that orientation thingy. I didn't have enough time for my self and sleep. I've been slept just for 3 or 4 hours these several days. I should wake up at about 4am every morning. How tired was I. But thanks god, the orientation is officially over. I felt like I want to dancing on the street after I'm free from that hell orientation, but I was too tired for dancing. lol.

Anyway, this Monday I'll start working. Yes, I've got job. Actually I deny that job, but the owner of that company keep asking me to training for half month. You know, I'm in the same company with my oldest sister :p

It's a good thing knowing that finally I got a job and I'll have my own income. But.. it will make days so busy. Working from morning, and continue my college until night. hah. Life's been so hard for me. :'(
When I'm not in home I cried everyday before sleep and woke up with swollen eyes in the morning. I miss home so much, I miss my mom and dad, I miss my boyf and others. Their faces always pop in my mind every day. But now I'm finally in my home, on my comfy bed. It's simply make me happy. I'm home :')

keep fighting Sofie, keep fighting.

Welcome to the Real Life

err, you can call me "a village girl move to town"

2 days more, I'll out from this home. Gonna miss it so much. No more good foods, no more sleeping on my comfy bed, no more this and that. I'll do everything by my self. I'll met so many strange people. My super-duper-long-holiday is OVER. how long is my holiday ? since 21th apr until 7th sept. u can count how long is that. 100++ days -.-

Probably I wouldn't blogging as often as I'm here, in my home. I'll busy with everything, which is not good. :(

 I got this from FireFox quiz. I don't know what is that, but I just take it.

 I'll give this to A.K, but I haven't frame it yet. -.-

mistaken

Hello There !

As I type this, nothing on my mind. I don't know what should I write and tell you about. But, I just want to make  a new post, so my blog isn't dead. I'm not in the mood of blogging right now, but in the other side, I don't know what should I do besides online and blogging.
Why my life is so flat, bored, confused, sad and bla bla bla lately ? My life is too poor.
Sometimes I think, why I'm still live in my empty life ? I'm facing so many problems lately. I don't know what is right and wrong. I have big questions in my mind and it comes to my mind everyday. "am I wrong ? whether all this time I'm the one who did wrong ?". I don't know how to answer it. I don't know well about myself !

Well, stop talking that shit. I know I'm too much babbling about my so-confused-and-bored life these several days. sorry for posting this nonsense ._.

Daily picture :

 last weekend dinner with my bf

 my niece, Marcelline Odellino

That's for today. Good nite dears. Bye-bye~

XXX,

Sofia

Pretending

I'm too tired to pretending. I was decided not to cry anymore. But, can I ? The answer is : I can't. I can't hold these tears anymore. Everytime I try to wipe it, it's always drop and drop. I don't know how long I'll feel these pains. Do you know how suffering am I because of you ??

Can you just leave me alone when I need to be alone ?

Can you just let me cry when I can't hold my tears anymore ? 

Can you stop ask me to stop crying and just wipe my tears ?

Can you stop make me cry everyday ?

Can you stop being a jerk in my life ?

Can you stop make me hate you ?

CAN YOU STOP MAKE ME HURT ??

" My heart is hurt enough, I can't forget "  

Sincerely,

- S

Defense

I've been a very cold girl to you nowadays. Don't blame me, it's because of YOU ! I wouldn't be like this if you never hurt me so deeply.

I'm too tired to cry. Crying everyday because of you. Yeah, everyday, everynight !

You are the one who can ruin my whole day just because of your words, your act.

Don't ask me why suddenly I can be like this towards you. You know the answer, you are the key.

You know, I can be like this because I DON'T WANT to cry anymore. I want to change my life. My life's screwed since you came to my life. Please, don't make it more screwed. Who are you so you have the ability to do this ?

I'll built a superstrong defense in my heart so I wouldn't gave you any change to make me cry anymore. I will never cry anymore. Never.

Sincerely,

Sofie

Like Everyone Said "There is Hello, There is Goodbye"

Long time no blogging.

Honestly I don't know what should I write.

I feel so bad right now.

I will lost something that really important in my life. :'(

'till right now, I'm still thinking of it. AAGGHHH !!

Anyway, here are some photos in my friend's birthday, Shirley Holmen.

We had dinner in her father restaurant. A great dinner ! :)

my boy :p

JULI IS SINGING !! W.O.W !!!

JR, u look beautiful :)

 guess what they were sing ?

it is KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI !!! *omiigodd*

OK, that's for today. I'll update more next time.

See yaa !

Cheers !

- SW -

I Believe in Miracle

I'm here again peeps ! :)

This is my first post in this year. :p

I've been passed so much fun times. How about you ? I hope it's good, or better than mine. :D
Today we were back to school. Miss all my friends, my class mates. X) 
We were gossiping, talking so much stuffs all the day, from morning to the end of school's bell. hahaha

My last BBQ party was good, but not great. yeah, have a bit problem. but it's ok. I was take some photo last new year eve, I'll upload it in next post.

OK, go to the topic ~

I had my new year wishes. I believe, Miracle is TRUE ! LOL~

You know, my first wish become true ! Few days ago I got Canon EOS 500D ! HAHAHAHA XD

Unbelievable !

It's just like... dream ? But I know it is real. I'm happy, proud, surprised, err.... what more.. I even don't know how to describe it. I just feel great ! haha

OK, just keep hoping and make the next wishes become true. :D

XXX,

Sofie ~

EXAM

HI Dearest Readers !!

Long time no see, uh ? :"> I just so lazy to update my blog. Although I had so many stories I wanna share, but... I just too lazy for typing and waiting for this lame internet connection ! -.-

OK, how's your day dude ? Fun ? Great ? I wish. :)

Now we are having our exam. Today is the 3rd day, which means 3 days remaining.

This morning I've Geography and Computer - usually we called it TIK - and I passed it well. The computer lesson is easy. Because it's about CorelDraw and PhotoShop. haha :p

But, I've made 1 mistakes. I lost the perfect mark. --"  It's ok. I've did my best. :)

Tomorrow we will have Math, deathly lesson. Nevertheless, I still haven't study or grab my book. And.... here I am. hahaha :D  Don't know I can pass it well or not. I wish I can, and I must ! I hope this exam can pass as soon as possible and I can obtain satisfactory marks. :]

OK, go to another topic.
My bf is sick. It's already the 3rd week. :(  He was exposed to the disease of gastric acid. I know that's his fault because rarely eat and irregular. He said " I regret ". Well, regret always come too late, rite ? I just hope he can get well soon.

Cheers !

- SW -

My Holiday

During my holiday last week i didn't update my blog. And I said that I had so many story to told you. Rite ?

And, now is the time. I'll tell you now. :)

Actually I had so many activities during my holiday. But now I just tell you one of my story. OK ?

Well, on 10th - 12th September 2010, I had an event. It called "Pelatnas" which means national training.

Just to clarify, it was an event which participated by some members of all temples in Aceh, Sumut, Sumbar, Kepri & Riau. And it was held in Medan, precisely in Nanyang Zhi Hui International School and Mutiara Hotel.

There, I got so many experience, either pleasant or not.

The pleasant experience were, got many lessons, science, and the most I love, had made many friends. I still remember some of their names, like Tiffany, Cindy, Monica, Siti, Peter, Shanty, Alberic, Tantowi, Anton, and... more. I've forget it partly. Too much. haha

But, the most unpleasant experience was the bathing problem.

You know, we were only given one pail of water to bathing. And the pail was very small. --"

Of course it didn't enough for us. But, however it is, we must to accepted it.

The other unpleasant was about the bedtime. We slept in about 11:10 p.m and woke up in 4 a.m just for queued for a shower. Can you imagine it ??

OK, but those are for us. Teach us to be patience, discipline, and learn how hard this life.

Nevertheless, those all were a precious experience. :)

Maybe for this post I can't fill it with some photos. I wanna show them to you, but the photos are so many, it reaches THOUSANDS you know ?? haha.

I don't lie. That's fact.

I intend to selected some photos to upload it, but it cant, i mean the internet line. You know the problem, rite? I really hate it. --"

Maybe other times I'll show them to you, but if I remember and have a leisure time. OK ? haha xD

With Love.

- Sunny Kid -

GO AWAYYY !!!

You know, now my face crowded by so many unknown head.

And, those are PIMPLES. I really hate it !!!

How can I eliminate it as soon as possible ??

I don't know what's the matter why my face suddenly full of acne.

Especially on my forehead, it's very crowded. * SIGH *

Alright, stop complain. I just supposed that all my pimples could disappear as soon as possible, returning as before. X(

very infuriate. rite ?? --"

love you !

- Sunny Kid -

A Letter

27th September 2010

Dear you...

I'm so sorry for all my bad attitude.

I'm sorry already hurt you.

I know all are my fault.

And....

Thanks for all your time.

Thanks for all your goodness.

Thanks for all your attention. 

Thanks for all your patience. 

Thanks for your understanding.

Thanks for your feelings towards me.

Although I've made so many mistakes, you always forgive me.

Maybe this is the best way.

I don't wanna hurt you further.

You are too kind for me.

I don't proper to receive all your kindness.

I'm heartless !!

But, I wouldn't forget all your words and all the times we spent.

And, the most important, I'll never forget you. NEVER.

Hope you find a girl that better than me, better in everything.

P.S : I'm so sorry.

Inauguration

Alright.

I had promised you that I'll update my blog in my leisure time.

And this is it.

Yesterday in my school, we had an inauguration for the OSIS new members.

Well, I didn't include. I am a senior. hahaha !  xP

So, as a senior, we release our position and leave it to the new members.

You know ? Our ex - OSIS's chairman is Vincent, and the new one is Vincent TOO !!

I think that is so coincidence. haha!

Buttt.. because of that inauguration, I passed my language lesson.

At that lesson, our teacher told us to read a poem - which is made by ourself - in front of the class.

And, almost all student in my class already read it. There are only five people remaining - including me - still haven't read it.

AHH GOD !! Just think about it already make me not excited.

I'm always stiff when taking in front of so many people. X(

But, this time I'll try my best. I must think positive.

YES! I CAN!!  xD

haha. LoL

Then, my friend also told me that my (other) friend, her poem was very sad.

She wrote about her mother. She read it with tears in her eyes.

It made a sad situation in our class.

Oh, I missed an even AGAIN !!

I really want to hear it. T^T

For my friend, sorry if I write it over here.

But, I hope you'll be a strong woman, like your mom. :)

OHH !! By the way, congrats for all OSIS new members.

Hope all of you can give the best for our school. :)

Right : Hartati

Left : Juliana

Saranghaeyo !

- Sunny Kid -

Today is Independence Day

Hi !! It's me again.

Finally I can online and write this post.

The line in my home is very very suck. From this morning until nite, it can't connected.

Agh ! It's make me... don't know how to describe it. I hate it.

Alright. Now I'll tell you about my day.

Today is Independence Day, it means holiday.

So, I went to my friend's house, just for watching and spend our boring time.

We (me and my friends) watched 'Phobia 2'.

Yeah, that's not a new film, but all of we never watch it before. That is a horor film.

Altough I spend this holiday with my friends, I still felt boring.

Not because my friends. But... I don't know what the problem.

Maybe the weather made me felt not excited, sleepy, and other. It's cloudy all day.

Huh ! Today, a holiday, but I don't feel happy.

Usually, I love holiday, moreover spend my time with my friends.

But today I don't. Don't know why. --"

Okhey, here some of our photos today.

 My friend, Shirley, she was so afraid while watched that film. Don't be coward my friend. haha :D

 Hey ! What are you doing ?? XD

This is Jessica. We call her 'JR'

This is Yessy

And this is Juliana

Happy Independence Day my Country  :]

Saranghaeyo !

- Sunny Kid -

It's me !

Hey People !

This time I'll show you some of my photo.

Let you know about me. haha

Okhey, don't talk too much. Here the photos.

Here are my old photo, when my hair was long.

I miss it so much. *sigh*  X(

Alright. Those are my photos.

You see? many of them was edited, altough just a simple edited.

That's because I love editing photos. haha

OK. I think that's enough.

Saranghaeyo !

- Sunny Kid -